i wanted to create a log of completely random memories with different people that I have cared deeply for. This is just for me. A journal of sorts.

~ roadtrips listening to the ink spots with a mango smoothie from dutch bros in the backroads of southern oregon
~ driving to and from redmond to bothell storage unit hoping my life would change w you
~ making videos driving backroads of washington on my way to work in issaquah
~ walking to the market around the corner to pick up alcohol and snacks on my way to hawthorne theater for a show
~ tending to my garden in my townhouse that I took for granted with a relationship I also took for granted (abusive yes, but fuck I miss him)
~ the neighbors yelling at us to close the windows every time we fucked (everynight)
~ visiting the great salt lake with my mom
~ when you'd bring me little snacks without me asking. When I'd bring you lunch without you asking.

Its. All. Gone. Now.

all the people i have loved or cared for have left me in some way